18 Things I’ve Learnt In 2018

Instead of making new year resolutions, I decided to put my list making urges to a different (less pressure inducing) purpose. Here are 18 things I’ve learnt in 2018.

Many of these are writing, reading and poetry related but there’s also a fair few cancer related ones. That’s just the way it goes sometimes.

  • Audiobooks are amazing. I’ve become such an audiobook enthusiast this year. Audiobooks mean you can read on public transport even if passengers are noisy, you can read while walking (which I find so relaxing) and you can also fall asleep to stories.
  • Slow fashion is a journey. To be honest, this year I’ve not been amazing at avoiding fast fashion. Months spent feeling ill and unhappy made me turn to online shopping. But instead of beating myself up about this, I’m moving on and have Depop ready for my next purchases.

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  • Sometimes you have to tell people what you need from them. When things are going wrong in my life, I sometimes forget to reach out to my support network. Having cancer is lonely but not telling people what you need from them makes it even lonelier.
  • I should wear sun cream in April. I think this is the month when the sun usually catches me out because it’s still a bit cold. Not anymore! I see you, sun.

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  • What it means to be in pain. This sounds super dark/dramatic but I’m currently writing a novel and being able to articulate pain more vividly, more complexly is useful. Research would do the same job to be fair so it’s a very slim silver lining.
  • Poetry is amazing. Like many people, I was put off poetry by school. Studying a poetry module for my MA and discovering all of the amazing modern poetry out there has been one of the most exciting parts of 2018 for me. If you want to get into poetry, I’d recommend reading a *modern poetry anthology.

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  • I can write poetry. For ages, I just assumed I’d be no good at poetry. Once I actually gave it a good shot earlier this year I realised I’m actually alright. I’ve got a long way to go but just being able to enjoy writing poetry is a brilliant outlet.
  • Modern society’s messing with our mental health. I feel like I’m always going on about *Notes On A Nervous Planet by Matt Haig but it’s been so helpful to me this year. I think I’m already due a re-read.

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  • Cancer isn’t a death sentence. Of course, I already knew logically that cancer wasn’t a death sentence. But now I actually have facts, figures and personal experience to back it up. Read more about this here.
  • We need to cut down on single-use plastic. This year more than ever I’ve heard horrifying examples of how plastic is damaging our planet. We all need to take action.

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  • What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger more anxious. Look, it would be great if the badass “what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger” motto was true. But it’s not. If something crappy happens to you, you will probably feel anxious, scared, sad and vulnerable for a while. This is totally normal.
  • Losing your hair is complicated. For me, it was simultaneously not a big deal and a big deal. It definitely affected my confidence, particularly out in public.

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  • Ed Sheeran is so good live. I was lucky enough to see Ed Sheeran live in Cardiff back in May. Of course, I knew it would be good but my expectations were exceeded.
  • It’s okay to take time out for yourself. The realisation that I needed to take a big break from my Masters this year was hard to swallow and at first, I didn’t let myself relax and recover. Thankfully, with the help of a psychologist, I’ve started letting myself slow down.

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  • Jellyfish evaporate in the sun. They’re 98% water!
  • Mindfulness requires patience. One of the best things that I’ve started doing this year is practising mindfulness. Practice is the key word here.
  • Brighton is brilliant. The Lanes, the pebbly beach and the charmingly tacky pier made Brighton an ideal weekend getaway in November. I will definitely be going back.

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  • Life is so precious. When your future is uncertain, it’s so difficult to live in the moment and not get consumed by anxiety. But, with a lot of practice and patience, it is possible to appreciate every day. I had grand plans for 2018, which didn’t work out. But I’m finishing 2018 feeling grateful to still be here, recovering and on a journey towards mindfulness and putting less pressure on myself.

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I hope you enjoyed this slightly eclectic blog post. Before I go, I’d just like to say a big thank you to everyone who has read my blog, left thoughtful comments and shared my blog posts this year. I really appreciate it.

Happy New Year!

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Four Books To Soothe Your Soul

I’ve taken a long blogging hiatus because of illness, which I will go into in another blog post. For now, I’ll take you through some books that have really soothed me this past year and have made the perfect books to read before bed.

To All the Boys I’ve Loved Before by Jenny Han

After loving the Netflix film adaptation I decided to listen to this YA romance on audio-book.

Lara_Jean_-_Peter_Kavinksky.jpgThe story follows Lara Jean, who never tells anyone how she feels until her secret love letters somehow get sent out to her crushes. At times I found the plot a little rambling and cliche but on the whole, this was a sweet and endearing story.

Northern Lights by Phillip Pullman

There is nothing more relaxing than revisiting a book from your childhood.

Northern Lights is the first in the His Dark Materials trilogy. Set in a parallel world where all humans have an animal-shaped daemon, the story follows Lyra and her daemon on a quest to the North to discover the meaning of Dust.

It’s no secret that Northern Lights has been very influential to me. It is both cosy and exhilarating, familiar and fascinating and just perfectly paced with imaginative characters. Plus the settings are so immersive and beautiful. It’s just the perfect escape.

Notes on a Nervous Planet by Matt Haig

You might not think nonfiction would be soothing but this book definitely is.

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Notes on a Nervous Planet explores in depth the link between modern life and rising incidences of stress and anxiety. Drawing on his own experiences as well as studies and anecdotes, Matt Haig encourages us to put down our phones, free ourselves from consumerism and focus on our wellbeing.

This book made so much sense to me and upon finishing it I felt empowered to reduce my anxiety levels.

Eleanor Oliphant is Completely Fine by Gail Honeyman

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This book is about a lonely woman who insists she is completely fine. She struggles with social interaction and exists on a tight schedule, punctuated by phone calls with her frightening mother. Her life changes when she meets IT guy, Raymond, who helps her heal from her past and realise life can be more than just fine.

It’s a heartbreaking novel but also a heart-mending one that celebrates genuine human connection through beautifully observed moments of intimacy. I cried multiple times but was left feeling touched, uplifted and hopeful. Definitely one for your TBR.

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Hopefully, these recommendations have not only provided you with some calming books to read before bed, but also reminded you to take some quality time for yourself to escape from the stresses of the world. Happy reading!

April Reads: fantasy, surreal realism and wild poetry

As I’ve not been updating this blog lately, I have lots of books (and thoughts) I’m dying to share. For now, here’s a quick overview of my current reads. I have three good books on the go right now, so let’s dive in…

Hot Milk by Deborah Levy

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This one had been on my radar (and unofficial TBR) for a while. The gorgeous cover kept catching my eye in Waterstones. And the more I heard about the southern Spain setting and the character dynamic between the mysteriously sickly mother and her lost, disillusioned daughter, the keener I was to pick it up.

I’m halfway through at the moment and so far it’s a really interesting read. I love how generously detailed Deborah Levy’s writing is. I feel like I’m learning little tidbits constantly. As I anticipated, it is a slow paced novel but the surreal, dreamlike atmosphere and complicated characters are keeping me engaged.

Feral by Janet McAdams

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I am sooo close to finishing this poetry collection – I think I’ve just got one poem left.

I’ve been dipping into a few collections that take inspiration from fairy tales for a university assignment, but Feral has been my favourite so far. This collection is varied, multi-layered and has led me to do some googling to learn about the cultural and historical references I was less familiar with.

As well as the recurring theme of wilderness, this collection explores polar expeditions, feral children from history and the boundary between human civilisation and nature. I would very much recommend this book to anyone interested in these themes.

The Book of Dust: La Belle Sauvage by Phillip Pullman

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I can’t believe I’m still reading this one, oops. It’s been so nice to read fantasy again but this top bedtime read has taken a backseat due to university reading. In keeping with the His Dark Materials trilogy, this book is immersive, rich, brilliantly paced and packed with compelling characters.

I’m about a third of the way in so it’s a little too soon to collect all my thoughts on it. But I can already tell it’s going to lead to a His Dark Materials re-read.

If you would like to share, I’d love to know what you’re reading at the moment! I’m always looking for new recommendations…

January Wrap Up: Gothic, Poetry and Self Help

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January has been a good reading month. Let’s delve straight in to the book reviews.

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Rebecca by Daphne Du Maurier

Since becoming fascinated by Hitchcock’s 1940 film adaptation of Rebecca, I’ve always meant to get around to reading the novel. And it did not disappoint. Continue reading “January Wrap Up: Gothic, Poetry and Self Help”